What was missing?
Have you ever been beat up emotionally and spiritually by genuine people you know loved the Lord? Their advice hit you like lead bullets in the heart. They quoted scriptures like a machine gun, thinking, sincerely that it would answer the hurt inside you. I spent many years feeling just like that – beat up, misunderstood, corrected when I already knew what was wrong and was fighting it with all my strength and not winning, advised with words that I already knew were in the Bible, but were not helping me at all, and told to just keep on keeping on, it will be alright, but it wasn’t. One day, in total frustration, I told God, “I don’t understand why You don’t answer me, You don’t talk to me the way they say you are talking to them, You don’t set me free from my past, it keeps coming back to beat me up whether through my own mind, or my “friends” condemnation.” I said, “If You don’t fix me, I am unfixable.” He decided to remind me of some things that had escaped me. I began to realize I had shut down even hearing His Word because of…